Winter break has finally started for me. Well, it has only started now cause I spent the entire weekend at a swim meet in Long Beach from 7 am until 7 pm, and now I’m exhausted. It was a pretty good meet for me, all things considered, and I basically was reminded how slow I am LOL. Like, the competition at this meet was freakin intense, and like, there were internationally competitive people here. It was really crazy, but I did pretty well (based on my personal performance, not ranked among others LOL). It wasn’t fun, but it was a good experience, but now I’m starting winter break. I feel so antisocial. Like, I’m so exhausted now, and I just wanna stay home and do nothing. I was invited to this party thats supposed to be happening tonight, and I found myself trying to find excuses not to go. I was like “oh, im tired, I just came from a swim meet, blah blah blah” and it made me go…WTF AM I DOING?? LOL. But whatevers. I’m not going, which makes me mad at myself, cause I only have like 3 days to hang out. (I’m going to NY on Christmas Day, and I’m coming back New Years Eve, then after I come back, I’m planning on staying home and doing ALL my work). So the next few days are devoted to being social, but I’m not.
Tomorrow, I’m hanging out with Katie the whole day. I haven’t really talked to her in such a long time, and it sucks, so I’ll be with her the whole day. Then the next few days, I still have open plans. We’ll see, I’ll play it by ear. I love Christmas, and the spirit. I hope I have a wonderful break. And I’ll update you stalkers later =]
“We enter the world alone and we leave it alone, and everything that happens in between, we owe it to ourselves to find a little bit of company. We need help, we need support. Otherwise, we are in it by ourselves: strangers cut off from each other. And we forget just how connected we all are. So instead, we choose love, we choose life. And for a moment, we feel just a little bit less alone.”—Grey’s Anatomy 5x09 “All by Myself”
Lol, thats the title of this country song by Dwight Yoakem, but thats kinda how I feel right now. And although my graphic novel was about how I combat stress, I’m not doing such a good job of it. Life is so complicated and hard. Academically, athletically, socially. I need a break, a pause button, or a refresh button. Too bad my life isnt like a DVD, or Internet Explorer. Stop the World, and Let Me Off.
I’m in Vegas right now for a swim meet. I’m excited, its been pretty cool since I got here. I love the energy, which makes me think I’m a big city person. In the few hours I’ve been here, I’ve already eaten a buffet, gone outlet shopping, and pulled the lever to a slot machine (and lost 1 dollar while at it). I am looking forward to a great weekend (minus the swimming part =) hahaha).
Clark:Dude, where the fuck were you after school? I couldnt find you. And I even went to the pool to look for you cause i thought you might be there cause swim tryouts, but no! And then I see Edwin, and he is like "Ray is by the band room." Tell me it isnt true.
Justine Lee:Oh, Ray, I love you. You are amazing and wonderful, and everything any girl could ever dream of. You are truly the most amazing person I have ever met, truly redefining the definition of a perfect guy. You are so intelligent, athletic, beautiful, and just super amazing and spectacular all around. You are my Edward Cullen, but I know I can never have you, because I am Justine and I am inferior to the 5,999,999,999 other girls who deserve you before me. Oh, Ray how I wish I could have you, but, alas, I cant. Please don't forget me, ever, because I am honored to have the privilege to talk to you. Thank you, Oh Great Ray, for changing my life, and making me feel warm and happy inside. You complete me, and words cannot describe the impact your presence has upon me. I hope you will talk to me again, I will treasure every word, and remember them for the rest of my life. Oh Great Ray Chao, you truly are amazing.